I miss traveling. I miss meeting new people, seeing new places, experiencing new things.
This was the train in India. Talk about a crazy experience. India is a nation built on craziness, of this I am certain.
I hope school doesn’t kill me.
I don’t understand what the point of religion is if His Presence isn’t there.
Fulfilling rules has only ever made me feel good for like 5-15 minutes after checking something off the list. It isn’t a lasting satisfaction. It doesn’t make feel good about my life, or my heart, or anyone else. It just makes me feel productive, and productivity is like an espresso shot of goodness. What we need is a big ole cup joe of His Presence.
I know people who believe in Jesus and they do the routine: church on sunday, prayer every now and then (especially when things get bad), journaling, etc.
Sometimes, those same people are completely uninterested or closed off to the power of His Spirit touching people today and talking to people. It’s my opinion that there is no greater adventure than being with the Holy Spirit and seeing Him touch people’s hearts in a real, tangible way (IE they fall, they get shaky, they sit quietly in His presence, they laugh, they cry, etc).
If I am going to give my life to follow Jesus, it has to be pushing for everything that I can. I am an all-or-nothing sort of guy. I made the decision about three and half years ago after having a powerful encounter with Christ that I wasn’t going to half-ass my faith. I was all in. My prayer was, “God, if I go for this.. If I do this, I have to know that you’ll always be there.” And His response was, “Absolutely. I will always be there because I love you and I am for you, and I have a destiny for you.”
Don’t get me wrong. I love His church. I love how people experience God across the board— both the crazies and the conservatives. I know that we don’t all have the same gifts or whatever, but there is always more. We can always ask for more and get more because He’s just so dang Good.
I guess what I’m saying is, that doing a routine with no heart for His presence in my life and in the lives of people around me seems like a pointless thing. That’s what Paul was talking about: “.. having a form of religion but denying it’s power. Have nothing to do with them.” (2 TImothy 3:5)
I’ve always been hungry for His presence, even since I was young. It’s why I would dance on sundays and it’s why I became a worship leader. I had this burning desire to feel Him and so I danced. I had a burning desire to feel Him and for others to feel Him like I did, so I practiced guitar everyday until I could lead worship.
I think it is possible to walk in His presence 24/7.
Brother Lawerence gave his life away in a kitchen for it (see “The Practice of the Presence of God”). Jesus walked in it. So, that’s at least two dudes in history who have done it. If they did it, I think we can too. And what would that even look like? How crazy would it be to have His presence on us all the time? Peter had such a powerful manifestation of God’s presence that sick people on mats would line up along the way Peter would walk hoping even his shadow would touch them and they would be healed (Acts 5:15).
Paul exhorts us to pray in the Spirit on all occasions and to always be praying. (Eph 6:18).
When His presence shows up crazy things happen. People get rocked, slain, drunk, tranced, edified, encouraged, loved, healed, delivered, pennies stick to walls and the list goes on. There is stuff in His presence we haven’t even touched yet and we have the opportunity as kids of God to explore it.
I want His presence all the time and He wants my heart all the time.
I know in the deepest part of me that it’s all worth it.